Every day, I wear shiny black tourmaline beads on a bracelet to ward off any “unwanted energy.”
Not energy like enthusiasm, or the third cup of coffee. Energy like bad vibes.
All of my empathetic wanderers in the room will know how this feels: the abject reality of picking up others’ mood and emotions without ever asking for it. It’s the mailman who just received a distressing phone call, the barista who had a fight with his kid, your partner who clearly hit traffic during rush hour – that speaks loudly and clearly to some without anyone even saying a word. Intuitive people pick that stuff up without even wanting to. So…I wear the tourmaline around my wrist. It wards off the bad juju and I get on with my life.
If this all sounds like “woo woo” hippie talk, I will admit, it is. That’s why I was delighted to learn that the Department of Defense has invested millions of dollars in researching “intuitives” and how to teach others in the military their keen perception skills (although they never mention black tourmaline.) Of course, the U.S. Military doesn’t call the psychic phenomenon “magic intuition.” They call it “sensemaking.”
The Department of Defense frames their studies like this, “a motivated continuous effort to understand connections (which can be among people, places, and events) in order to anticipate their trajectories and act effectively.” Ok. So they want low key psychics. That’s fine with me, I think it’s true: there is immense power in what our gut is telling us.
Apparently, this study was inspired by several reports from Iraq in the early 2000’s. There were accounts of field agents, that when debriefed after a mission where they narrowly missed an attack by an IED (improvised explosive device) could explain nothing further than they “felt it was coming” so they made plans to circumvent the attack. Several of the agents described a sixth sense that helped them avoid the dangerous situation and, in turn, saved themselves as well as hundreds of brave soldiers.
Currently, the U.S. Military doesn’t seem interested in getting to the bottom of why this intuition occurs. They are more interested in seeing how they can teach that type of intuition to others. I will admit, I am an intuitive person, but I don’t think I would be cut out for the military. (I cried when I caught a fish this summer, and spent the evening googling what level of pain the average fish could feel.) But even if you are not using this power in combat, I genuinely believe it can be used to better your life (or our world.)
What a long winded way to tell you I quit my full time job at a Public Relations firm to start my own content and ghostingwriting company, Ella Kerr, LLC. I talk to people and help them tell their stories, whether that is in the form of a full length memoir, or simply getting their thoughts into text onto their website. It’s hands down the most rewarding thing I have ever sunk my teeth into.
The decision came at a strange time: I was holding my own in the PR world and I was thankful for the stability it provided in the midst of the pandemic. But that pesky sensemaking! Nagging at my gut and whispering, “You were made for something different than this. Comfort is not your calling!” Oh Lord, wasn’t that the truth.
Pair that with the subconscious planning I was doing in the back of my head. This newsletter marks one whole year of (and fulfills my 2020 resolution) of writing something true and inspiring each month. That’s a hard task to take on when your world is inundated by a PR job and Covid. Yet, I promised myself that if I fulfilled this resolution, then something good would come. Something spectacular even. And now, here I am. Leaping off the precipice of certainty and into the world of owning a business and highlighting stories I believe are worth sharing.
I suppose this is a way to tell you that if you are looking for a sign, look inside. If there is a strange uninhibited voice inside talking (incessantly) about big dreams and big plans that you constantly silence with the phrase “One day we will. One day.” Or if there is a gaping whole in your heart, or if there is an opportunity that flirts with your brain like you are the last woman on earth, dear God, I pray you take it.
There is more to intuition than a zap of lightning in our consciousness; and it can’t be repelled by a black tourmaline bracelet. And if you feel it, and are drawn to it, place value on that. The Department of Defense sure does.